|Married to Superman|
Monday, January 30, 20061-30-2006
Well, this morning started off well...I got to see Lucas in his silver bullet heading to school as I was heading to work. It's amazing at how I still get butterflies anytime that he is with in eye sight...that is something that I hope never goes away and I am sure never will.
I wonder if he saw he trying to wave and drive at the same time...let's just put it this way...it's a good thing that my coffee was in a spill proof mug...*takes a sip...mmmm...coffee*
The sun is shining, the fog is lifting and my little portable radio is awesome because I can listen to my favorite local radio station B101.5 - The Breakfast Flakes Morning Show...they are funny...I enjoy them...(No that was not intended as a plug)
Well, that's all I got for this morning. Have a wonderfully awesome day!
(I Love You Lucas!!!)
Friday, January 27, 20061-27-2006
These last 2 days have been very thoughtful days to me...not sure why...maybe it's the fact that I don't feel good...still feeling icky today...everything hurts...legs, arms, guts, head, nose, throat, fingers, toes...yea...pretty much everything...bed is calling...yet so it my job...so here I sit...ill...like a good little underpaid soldier...yet I realize that it is better to be underpaid then not paid at all!
I have something very insightful that I want to post, but my fingers just don't feel like typing it...maybe this afternoon...
Hope ya'll feel better then I do.
(I love you Lucas)
Thursday, January 26, 20061-26-2006
Tragedy: n 1: an event resulting in great loss and misfortune
Tragedy. My thoughts drift to it today. The word is used to often now-a-days. It seems that such a powerful word now seems less powerful. Why is that? Why would we cry if we heard it before, but now we are so accustomed to hearing it that we just let it roll off, like we never heard it?
I have heard so many things referred to as this, such as the attacks on 9-11 that bruised the very core of our Nation. Yet, in this we found something that we never have before. We found that we can come together if we need too. So, if such a thing came from it, then can we really call it a tragedy? If we all had the faith in God, then it would not have been a tragedy, but a celebration. A celebration that many souls got to go home to be with their Lord, where everything is good, there is no pain or tears. Yet, I stop. Human nature does not look at it that way. We are not trained to see death as something great; we are weak in the flesh and our hearts long for our lost ones. This I do understand. I miss my grandma – She was called about half a month before my 13th Birthday. I am now 22 and at times it still feels raw.
Now, I wish to reflect on another thing that I have heard as a tragedy. That is the fact that President George W. Bush is indeed our current president. Tell me something – Do you not realize that you are choosing to use a word to decide a man that is going the best he can – when you also turn around and use this word to describe death? I understand that out troops are over in Iraq and numerous places defending our freedom and that they are missed. Yet, how can you blame the president, when people sign up for the military on a voluntary basis? The president is using the resources that are available to him. There is no draft – You choose to join the military on your own terms, so you should expect that you will have to fight. With out the military being over there, the terrorism would be here.
We where ATTACKED on 9-11 – Did you see how if effected our nation? It hurt, it burned, it caused about 10 new songs to be produced…people wept, people wailed, and they didn’t know what to do. Yet you wish for the troops to be pulled from there, so that we can welcome more? I just don’t understand you people.
There are missionary’s that are over their constantly, in the mist of it because they CHOOSE to be, yet you don’t see people blaming God when one of them is injured or what-not. No, you see God’s people stand and pray for them. God is just using his recourses and so is President Bush when it comes to the military.
If we all would just stop to take a moment to pray instead of grumble, oh how this would help. All the energy that is put into hating could be used for the good and our Nation would be so much stronger.
I woke up this morning with this on my mind. I typed it up, so that I could post it later on when I got to work when I was on my 1st break. Many people don't feel the way I do, and I don't expect them too, but this is my opinion, and I have the right to express it. I hope that if nothing else, you think about it.
Have a good day all.
(I love you Lucas)
Wednesday, January 25, 20061-25-2006
I really hope that this is a new day with a fresh start...last night was kinda rough (But I caused that to happen to myself and I wrapped Lucas up in the process)
I am not going to dwell on that because there is no need. Though Lucas did not forgive me, he said that he might not be mad this morning and that is what I am hoping for...but just incase
I'm sorry...I really am...PLEASE forgive me!
Ok...I said I wasn't going to dwell on it, so I am moving on...
To bad that that is all that is on my mind...
Maybe something interesting will happen at work today and I can blog about that later.
Have a good day.
(I love you Lucas)
Tuesday, January 24, 20061-24-2006
Well hello all you happy people in blogger land, how are you today Me? Just peachy thanks.
Though, I am a bit saddened...why you ask? I will not get to see Lucas tonight (Insert loud sobbing here) I have to get my shots and go see Granny and then a meeting at church...I am one busy lady.
Speaking of the shots...all went fairly well and I thought that I was in the clear till I woke up Saturday morning with a squeeky voice and a tad bit of a runny nose.
I have also developed a cough, that I am not sure if it came from the shots (Doubtful) or if I am indeed getting sick...I haven't been sick in of a few months, so it's due time I suppose.
The girl who sit's beside me has been sneezing and coughing and blowing her nose (She's a mess at the moment) and she said that it is her allergies and I am not one to dis-believe, but take a sudafed and roll on child...geeze...
Oh...we got a new fridge at work right? The ond one went kaput and it was 11 years old so we descided to retire it. Well, all the floors had been warned that a new fridge was coming soon, so get what we had in the fridge out, except for like your current lunch, or what-not. Well the new fridge got here and Tia and I where assigned to throw out EVERYTHING that was in there...no matter what. Well, we double checked with HR and she said that everyone had been warned to get their stuff out now because the new fridge was here, so we started pitching stuff. We saw some stuff that looked like current lunches, but we figured that maybe they where older then they appeared, so in the trash it went.
Turns out that no one had told the new training class...oops
Needless to say they where not happy...
I was just doing what I was told so I am innocent...INNOCENT I tell you!
Aah well...another day another persons lunch in the trash...let me tell you...with the shape of those containters you can tell that they must not have had a job...I think some people need to take their 1st paycheck and get some tupperwear ok? Harsh...yes, mean...yes, true?...YES
Ooh, and people really need to wipe off their salad dressing bottles...ewww...
Gotta go...holla lata hommies!
(I love you Lucas)
Friday, January 20, 20061-20-2006 (Dun dun DUN!)
*Insert a loud gulp here*
So today is the day...The starting of a new era...The beginning of a 5-7 year process of getting allergy shots!
I have heard from about 50% of the people that I have talked too that I won't even notice a difference and 50% of the people said that I'll be miserable and that I should be packing Kleenex before I go.
My appointment aint till 6 tonight..That's good because I don't have to miss work...What am I talking about? I should be mad that I can't use it as an excuse to miss work...Yet, I guess since I have to go every week I should be grateful because I don't have to keep altering my schedule.
Yea, so I went to see a plastic surgeon yesterday...After the weight loss (180 big ones) I have some medical issues, and have been told that seeing a plastic surgeon to remove the extra skin would be the only way to solve it. So I made the appointment, and here is what happened:
1. I watched a movie on tummy tucks that was 10 minutes of the corniest actors that I think I have ever seen from 1985 (I know this for sure because I saw the credits at the end)
2. They put you in a -10 degree room and tell you to strip down to nothing but your socks and put this paper gown on. Oh thank GOD that you let me keep my socks on...I feel so much more confident that you couldn't see my toes...
3. The Dr. Comes in and plays with your extra skin, explains that she is going to do, rips the paper thin gown in the process which falls to the floor.
4. Her nurse comes in (Great...Now 2 people get to see everything but my toes)
5. Struggle with the gown in a vague attempt to cover myself.
6. Ask for some tape to tape the dang thing together (They did oblidge though)
7. As soon as I got the gown to stay on the Dr leaves and the nurse tells you to remove it...why you ask? So that she can take pictures...ooh joy!
8. You are twisted this way and that way so that they can take photos of every part of your body...pictures that you would NEVER want to be taken.
9. The nurse finally tells me to put my clothes back on, which I just about jumped for joy when she said that, but I didn't cause I was naked and didn't want to harm myself with all that extra stuff flapping around.
10. She opens the door as wide as she can letting in a chilling breeze (As if I wasn't perked enough already) while I am standing there with nothing but my socks on.
11. I clothe myself as quickly as possible, hoping that no one comes in the door before I can cover all the parts that I want too...they don't like to knock...
12. I am lead to a room where they tell me what the prices will be if insurance doesn't cover it (I PRAY that insurance will cover it...really)
13. You finally get to leave and realize that you have to pay a co-pay, run back around the corner and write up the check, and now that lady wants to talk...she was in a little hole, so I am guessing that not to many people talk to her...had them crazy eyes (One thing I was glad of was that she wasn't my nurse...)
And thus, ends the story of my plastic surgeon experience. I hope that you got a laugh.
Wish me luck at the allergist tonight! Here's hoping that I feel no effects!
(I love you Lucas)
Wednesday, January 18, 20061-18-2006
Bleh...im sick...my throat hurts, my tummy hurts and I feel feverish...I didn't even get to see Lucas this week yet...now I guess I won't see him tonight either...I just want to go home and go to bed...
Plus I earned a dress down day at work...I descided to use it today...what I failed to remember in my sicken state was that some big shots from different offices are visiting today, so we where not to wear jeans...I did not remember this till I got in the parking lot at work. So I called my manager to tell her that I had to go home and change and she didn't sound to happy about it...here I was...feeling ill...wanting to go home anyways...well, I got go home...but not to stay...
Plus my cousin who normally puts the dogs out called me to tell me that he could not put the dogs out again...I have even less of a lunch break today because I have to make up the time that I missed this moring when I was going home to change...I was already down to 1/2 an hour and now I am down to 15 minutes. I guess the good thing is I can't take lunch till 1:00 because of the guests, so i'll be getting back to my desk at roughly the same time that I would when I take my full hour lunch...
Geeze...everything that I put in my stomach makes me want to...well...you know.
Lucas - If you read this don't be afraid to comment...it's not hard and I enjoy responces...(I love you!!!)
Ya'll try to have a good day if you can...
Tuesday, January 17, 20061-17-2006
Kinda getting a twitch now...I haven't heard from Lucas since yesterday at 3, and I haven't seen him since SATURDAY! I do hope that he is feeling better though...really I do!
Well, I only have a 1/2 an hour lunch and my cousin called me to inform me that he would be unable to put the dogs out today, so all I can say is I really hope that they can hold it because I really don't think that I am going to be able to make it home. I don't mind when I normally have an hour, but 1/2 an hour would be cutting it real close.
Guess i'll figure it out...
Monday, January 16, 20061-16-2006 (Cont.)
Well, I just got a sad voice mail...my poor baby is sick! From the way he sounded on that voice mail VERY sick! Poor thing...I surely hope that he feels better soon. yet in his sickened state he failed not to remember to tell me he loved me at the end of the voice mail...I love him so much!
I guess that's what that 1st day back to school will do to ya...I hope that everyone else didn't fare the same.
Good luck to the rest of ya'll!
Wow the weekend sure did go by fast, as is the norm. Yet there is some stability in going back to work....to bad im not a very stable person :)
Well, today is Lucas 1st day back to college for the 2nd semester. I certainly hope that he has a wonderful day back. His 1st class started at 10 this morning, so he is probably right in the midst of it studying like the diligent student he is. Lucas is VERY VERY smart and he is doing amaxingly well in college. I have no doubt that he is going to graduate at the top of his class and get a wonderful job...what more could a woman want? He's cute, he's smart, and in love with ME! I am certaily lucky to have him beside me.
See, I would make a list of the things that I like about him, but I just simply couldn't fit it all in this blog.
I realized something this morning...but I forget...ooh yea...I'm forgetful! The sad thing is, I can remember everyone elses stuff, but when it comes to mine I always forget! I tried the planner thing where you write everything down, but I kept forgetting the planner when I left home so that didn't work...I tried the PDA thing, but I never could figure out how to use it. Oh well...I guess I made it to 22 with out remembering everything, so I guess i'll be alright.
Well, I have a LOT of work to do...have a great day!
Friday, January 13, 2006RE: 1-13-2006 (Friday the 13th)
OK...I just want to make it perfectly clear that just because I am jealous of the time that Lucas spends with Josh does not mean that I do not like Josh. I do like Josh and I am glad that Lucas has a good friendship with him.
Josh is not the one that pulls Lucas away from me, because Lucas goes on his own will.
Here is a list of things I like about Josh:
1. Josh is quite helful on "the edge" which is a game that I do enjoy as does Lucas.
2. Lucas likes him.
3. He has an awesome Edge website and he has one dedicated to his family which is very nice.
4. He got Lucas to wear a tux in his wedding so I could get a preview of our wedding :)
5. His wife is a fashion designer and I am getting married soon and need help with a wedding dress...hmmmm
6. He usually kicks Lucas butt at magic which helps keep Lucas grounded.
7. He's a very sweet guy...he went all the way out of the country to ask his now wife to marry him (Awww...)
Look, I haven't known him that long ok...I'll add more as I think of them...
I am sure that Lucas is looking at this right now and laughing very hard.
Also, the comment that seems like it is from Josh on the prior post is actually from Lucas, just trying to scare me...
Let me tell you...it worked...and it made me CRY!!! Yet I did kinda get him back because he covered the phone and called me a name that was not appopriate (Not the B word...I would be very upset if he ever called me that) thinking that I would not hear him and I did, so naah naah naah naah naah naah!(Let that be a warning Lucas Daniel NEVER to call me that or I will get grately offended...even if I am acting like one...HAH)
Well, now that my butt is covered I think i'll go...tootles!
I cannot even begin to tell you how fowl of a mood I am in today. I am trying very hard to focus on the finer points of life and not the lower ones. It's a darn good thing too, because it I wasn't I think I woulda blown by now.
I really don't know why I am so bitter...well actually I think I do:
1. My dad who whenever he puts the dog out at night isn't happy till he fusses loud enough that everyone is up with him.
2. The supervisor for my department has been hired and I am bitter because I really wanted that job and I felt that I qualified, but apparently I didn't...
3. The game called Magic and Josh...got love for Josh, but I feel left out and ignored when they are playing...i've been told that I am wrong to feel that way because Lucas gives me attention all the time and when he wants to do something like that I shouldn't get upset, but I do and I could hide it, but that's how I feel. Lucas is so good at giving my attention, that I am used to getting it and when I don't I don't like it!!! Yea, im spoiled...and I like it that way...who wouldn't?
4. WEDDING COLORS! They are dang near impossible to choose!
5. Making coffee that is really nasty and having to drink it or having nothing, then spilling it all over myself right before I leave for work and having to scramble to change before I am late.
I think I will try and ponder on the good things...maybe that will help.
Always at the top of my mind is the wedding. I cannot WAIT! I cannot even tell you how much I am looking forward to getting married. Don't get me wrong though, I love my parents and my home, but I am so in love with Lucas that I just can hardly stand it when I am away from him. It just seems so unfair that a love like ours has to wait, but I suppose that we are blessed to have that love because there are people that do not have another to run to and talk too. I know that we will have the best life with God in the center and wonderful friends and family all around us. I also realize that getting married isn't all peaches and cream because bills will come and things will be tight, but with the knowledge and love that we have I feel that we will be able to work together to figure it out. Aug 4, 2007 - I can't wait for you!
I have a job - I could say many things about what I dis-like about my job...many many many things, but above all I have a job and I have the ability to come to work and perform my job and get a pay check every other Friday. Plus I usually get along with everyone there so that is a definite perk.
I have a wonderful church family. They are always there when you need them and knowing that I have so many people praying for me all the time is a comforting feeling. I enjoy being in the choir and Charlie puts up with my goofy non-sense and just keeps on rolling. Lynn is so easy to make laugh and that just makes me feel so much better because it makes me feel funny even when I really aint...Betty Lou has said that she enjoys writing also and I hope that she enjoys this babble if she reads it. Lucas is in the choir and that just makes it so wonderful!!! Mrs. Ruth plays the piano like she was born with a keyboard in her hand (That doesn't really make sense, but that's okay...it;s my blog after all) Cecil is just so encouraging, and Greg who is also one of my Sunday school teachers is such a good tenor singer!!! Mrs. Shirley is gorgeous and so God loving...it just oozes off of her! Debbie (Greg's lady) is faithful as can be! Not only did she still come when she was having back problems, but she also does the newsletter at church. Anna is a great asset to the choir and I am glad that she is coming. Carmen is so beautiful even though she doesn't seem to think so...she is so generous and caring and her hubby Billy is a lucky man to have her! Rosa is a little bit punk and a lotta bit angel! She has the most beautiful long hair and is always smiling! Ms. Emma is not only a brave woman for sitting in the front pew, but she is the official cough drop lady. If you ever need one, you go see her! Mrs. Bessie Ann...I have known this lady since I was born and she has always been to sweet to me and I love her ever so much! There is 1 new gentleman in the choir and I believe his name is Jeff. I don't know much about him other then the fact that he is dating a lady who works for Pratt, but he seems to be a genuine nice guy! I am glad that he joined the choir! Well, I think I got everyone, but I mayu have forgotten some. Fear not that I have forgotten you, but that you are in my prayers (As the rest) always!
Wow that made me feel better!
The fog has lifted (figuratively and literally) so I think that I shall sign off for a while...
Monday, January 09, 20061-9-2006
Well I am surely in a wonderful mood today. I think it was because I went to a bridal show yesterday and I have been on a high ever since. I am so excited about getting married that I can just hardly contain myself. I think Lucas thought that I was going to kill him yesterday when I got back from his house...I really was excited though.
Ladies...I got such a good deal on tux's...I was very proud of myself. I put down a $10 deposit (Just to lock down the price) and each and every groomsmen and guy that will have anything to do with the wedding get's their whole tux (Shoes included) for $60 bucks!!! That is awesome compared to the normal $120 that you usually pay to rent them suckers. Plus if we have 5 guys that rent one (No problem there) Lucas get's his FREE!
Plus I found a DJ that I really like that is cheap!
My only problem now is that I want to start booking these people and places, but I am to far advanced...
The reception hall told me to call back on Aug 1st to book for Aug 4th of next year, so Aug 1st at 8:00 AM (The opening time for the local parks and rec.) they will be receiving a call from me to book that sucker!
Also it sounds as if Lucas cousin Josh and his new wife will be in town soon, and Laura is a fashion designer in New York, so I am going to ask her for some tips on a wedding gown. I plan to hit up a David's Bridal $99 dollar sale to get my dress. Somehow I have always been blessed with being able to get lower priced formal wear and still have it look good, so I am hoping that the tradition will continue.
The only thing that I am really putting thought into now is my colors. I really want pink roses, so the bridesmaids would have to wear pink and a few of the potential cannidates have told me that pink aint their favorite color, but I guess it is my party and if they truly love me they will wear what I pick out...I swear that it will be a nice pink. I want the guys to have black tux's with cream vests underneath. I think that will be agreeable cause I don't really want my groom walking don't he isle with pink on...though he probably would for me, but I wouldnt make him do that! The only other color that I had thought of was yellow roses with a creamy yellow color for the maid's dresses. All of the ladies that I will ask will look gorgeous in whatever they wear cause they are all gorgeous anyway! I haven't officially asked anyone yet, but I know some who I have in mind!
Well, I guess I better stop rambling cause *sigh* my break is over, and it is lunch time.
I PRAY that nothing happens this afternoon that will bring down this high that I am on!
Have a good one!!!
PS - I went to the allergist and I am allergict to everything apparently, so starting not this Friday but the next (20th) I start getting allergy shots...fun fun!!!
Friday, January 06, 20061-6-2006
To the Dr's office I go...my asthma has been driving my CRAZY here lately, so I am going to go see if I can get some better meds.
I'll try to post more later...wish me luck...im being worked in...
PS - We still have the dog...
Thursday, January 05, 20061-5-2006
Well good day all you wonderful people in blogger land. How are you? Glad to hear that (If you are good) I hope that it gets better (If you are sick) and wow (In the case that I don't know how to react!)
So I think that my family is getting rid of the dog tonight. I have been ordered by higher powers that I am to return to the "nest" right after work so I can call the original owner to say that we don't want her little hellion of a dog.
Everybody in my house is stressed including the dog that we already have. I didn't realize how much I liked my current dog till the new one came...Cocoa is an angel of a dog!
Plus Cocoa doesn't like the baby gate that we have put up and neither do I...I trip over it almost daily and it is tough on your toes!
On a better note:
So I have been going to the gym and I am really starting to see a difference...I looked at the bottom of my legs the other day at Lucas house and was like WOW...it actually looked nice (Normal if there is a normal)...any farther up then that I still can't saw much for, but ya gotta start somewhere right?
Well, it's almost lunch time so I think I am going to sign off for now. I hope that everyone has a wonderful day!
Tuesday, January 03, 20061-3-2006
Needing to vent at the moment. I am feeling very bitter at the moment. Why you ask? Well the company that I work for is hiring a superisor for the group that I am in. I applied for the position and I did not even get so much as a screw you. Now I hear my manager on the phone setting up interviews. I am pissed! I work hard at my job and I think that I deserve that postion...I at least deserve an interview. I'll calm down and trudge on as I normally do, but I just had to get that out.
The thing that I know is going to happen is once they hire a supervisor all us unerlings will have to train that person and I think that is unfair. Training is not in our job desciptions, so I don't think that we should have to do it.
If I was a cat I would be hissing and the hair would be up on my back, claws and teeth showing...of corse then I would sneeze because I would be allergict to myself and then I would look silly..heehee...that's a goos step...I made myself laugh.
I did recieve an interesting list today of things that you are supposed to ponder that make you happy. Also known as "Feel-Good Thoughts" Perhaps this is a good time to list them since I am feeling so peeved...
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket
5. A special glance.
6. Getting a letter in the mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milk shake. (or vanilla or strawberry!)
12. A bubble bath.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies.
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.
46. Being able to express your feelings like you want too.
47. Getting what you deserve (I just added that one)
Well, I suppose that I have vented enough for now. Enjoy your day if you can...